In this moment…
Spiritual growth takes practice, perseverance and a willingness to let go. Over and over I am shown something that needs to be processed, the layers removed allowing consciousness to flow into parts of my being. I am guided by my experience to those places that need to be released and I do so now with power and grace. To dance, I must be right here and now, completely in the moment without thought or mind, otherwise I am other than able to have complete presence with my body to move with the rhythm.
So, the journey continues… We are working on Latin Dances now, particularly the Rumba and some very tangible things are happening. At first there were the steps and my left-brain dominance took over and had to analyze the whole thing. And when I say it took over, I mean that literally. My physical body had no point of reference to move from with these new steps and I remember how challenging it was to learn the basic box step when my mind took over. However, I know now that my physical body will move to these new steps if unhampered by the mind. I have experienced it… Numerous times in practice I have spontaneously pulled out a series of movements, with fluidity and grace, that are representative of some of the dances. So far, I have felt the Foxtrot, Waltz and Rumba in this way.
A beautiful thing happens when the mind gets out of the way and a true experience can be had. What is it that the mind gets hold of? What does it think it’s jurisdiction is? I know my mind has taken over if I am thinking looped thoughts, over and over, of the past or future. The mind does like to have center stage and will do anything, it seems, to have it’s way. It will tell you all about it’s perceptions of the past, spinning tales of old as long as you allow it.
I have found soul retrieval to be very effective at reclaiming my sovereignty from past events affecting my Now moment. Shamanic journeying is used to consciously shine light on the shadows to expose the point of fracture where the Soul energy was first lost and upon seeing it I am able to “scoop” it into a ball of light and bring it across the veil to be healed with Love, Kindness, Forgiveness and Release. When this process is complete and integrated, the mind has nothing to work with when accessing that particular memory. It no longer has power over me because I journeyed to retrieve it.
Watching the Pros (and the Stars…) dance is simply amazing. It gives me inspiration, knowing that the human body can indeed master the steps, technique, rhythm and motion of Ballroom Dance. With this knowledge and my shamanic practices, the experience is becoming so rich and vibrant. I am open to experiencing whatever happens during a lesson or practice session, looking for the places my body shows me.
Dance frame, posture and technique are critical pieces to this Ballroom puzzle I have seen. The past three months attest to that, as my physique and presence has changed dramatically. There was, and still is, much to be released. And that’s OK. I see now, as I get into the deepest territory yet, that here in these dark recesses were attachments to physical identities my body had created along the way. I noticed in class that my mind and thoughts actually shift into old patterns if my frame slips into poor posture; almost like the old body alignment brought back that identity.
Looking here has given me the opportunity to see how my physical body has held me in place in the past and what part my mind played in this nonsense as well. My body is still changing, lengthening and strengthening… It is becoming a dancers body and I am happy, as I have far more presence now than ever before. And I want what this new body can help to provide, as I have seen the planetary benefits of embracing the dance of the Universe.
Practice is key, as the old identities fade into the sunset, more clarity is available right now. The benefits are significant, I can feel it already and I am excited to explore the fractal nature of our dance in future posts. For now, I focus on the physical release of all past memories and experiences held in cellular memory so as to better access the full potential of this amazing human body.
When I close my eyes I see in visions the Shaman of ancient times, barefoot and listening, dancing and circling, a spiral of light coming from the connection to Creator and I know… Before it all and after it all the beat will still be there, but I am right now. By doing the work, I am better able to stay here and move in harmony with it, knowing what moves to make as they flow effortlessly through my body.
Dance has been a part of the human experience since it began, I believe. No longer will I deny myself the experience because of some hidden identity deep within my psyche. I know better now, so I do better now… Total personal responsibility and onto the floor I go…
Love and Kindness